Hey y'all! *Waves excitedly and pretends that I have been here the whole time.*
Let's get into it shall we?
Here are some updates as to what is going on with lil ole me.
Remember when I was all in love and stuff? Well, yeah, love is a battlefield so I'mma need y'all to bless a sister with a few prayers that no foolery shall befall me in 2016. 2016 has been veddy veddy good to me thus far, it's kinda like Mike Jones on steroids. But y'all know I'm not greedy,
I only need one. I will even wear flats for the right somebody. Sometimes. Let's not get crazy.
Dress: Forever 21 (Purchased last summer)
I'm teaching 4th grade this year. I didn't think dropping from 5th to 4th would be that big of an adjustment but apparently 4th graders are very literal. So my witty humor is lost on them. I KNOW! Imagine all the great Juanette-isms they are missing out on. AND they are awkward huggers. They will hug you no matter what you have in your hand (hot coffee, meatball sub, scissors), who you are talking to (parents, other students, the principal) or whether you are paying attention to them or not. So I've learned to be on guard for any unexpected embraces. They are sweet though, someone brings me cake at least once a week because if it is ANYONE'S birthday that they know, the understand how their teacher feels about cake.
I've been in and out of a dark space for a little over a year now but now I can honestly say that I have an optimistic mindset these days. I blamed myself for the demise of my relationship and tried (valiantly, I might add) to salvage it. But once I watched THIS video, I realized that it was not my purpose to prove my worth and convince someone to stop being dumb. I had to release what was holding me back and realize what is meant for me will find me. I find myself hopeful and my soul is dancing once again. So I kicked up my workouts, took up meditating, and got my groove back like Stella (but without that whole gay husband thing.)
It is difficult for me to admit but I kinda forgot the rarity of me.
And I never want to forget that again.
High tops: Converse
All photos by Paul S. Williams Photography
"You are obligated to understand that you are unique in the world. There has never been anyone like you because, if there were, there would be no need for you to exist. You are an utterly new thing in creation. Your life goal is to realize this uniqueness." -- Aaron Perlow